I'm sorry but you are a horrible person. You gave another person a blowjob while you had a lover of your dreams. You don't justify cheating with "I was drunk", "I was lured into it". There is no justification unless you were forced to do it. Which is not the case. What pisses me off is that you had excuses for why you did, instead of admitting that you ****ed up. You didn't come clean here, and you aren't going to come clean with your boyfriend.
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